I didn’t just read some books on either side of an issue and form an opinion .  I almost went to hell. Satan is recruiting shepherds for assisted suicide jobs all over the church , and a shepherd’s hands can become covered with sheep’s blood .  And the assisting shepherd really need not do anything …

Satan loves killing sin unto eternal death ;  spiritual abortion , spiritual suicide , and severance of proper spiritual headship.  He is a decapitator .  Now, he just wants a managing editor position in the doctrine of your church . Binding Holy Spirit instead of binding satan will make that much more likely , as Jesus said that the Spirit would lead us into all truth . And the time has come when men will not endure sound doctrine , but seek teachers to tickle their ears …

This post is written mostly to the informed hireling variety of shepherd .  Not to the diligent , informed  shepherd  .  And to the diligent , but uninformed shepherd , I say , ” sleepers awake !!! ” This is your wake – up call . Learn more here .  Recently , the Lord reminded me of a scripture in John chapter 10 :

 

¹⁰ The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.

¹¹ I am the good shepherd: the good shepherd giveth his life for the sheep.

¹² But he that is an hireling, and not the shepherd, whose own the sheep are not, seeth the wolf coming, and leaveth the sheep, and fleeth: and the wolf catcheth them, and scattereth the sheep.

¹³ The hireling fleeth, because he is an hireling, and careth not for the sheep.

Ah , yes : leaving … abandonment … can be done while physically present . Emotional abandonment,  as well as dereliction in proper instruction concerning critical safety information could  qualify !   One could call THAT  ” instructional abandonment .”

My own experience with nearly going to hell taught me that inadequate understanding of hamartiology … the study of sin … leads to ignorance of sin typology .  It is erroneous for Christians to flippantly remark that ” with God , sin is sin ! ”  In our legitimate desire not to be too sin – conscious , many of us have become sin – naive !   And such ignorance makes error in soteriology , the study of salvation ,  more likely !  In fact , Christians are committing killing sin ;  sin unto death as in 1 John 5 : 16 .

¹⁶ If any man see his brother sin a sin which is not unto death, he shall ask, and he shall give him life for them that sin not unto death. There is a sin unto death: I do not say that he shall pray for it.

 

And so , it is well to review Ezekiel 3:18

¹⁸ When I say unto the wicked, Thou shalt surely die; and thou givest him not warning, nor speakest to warn the wicked from his wicked way, to save his life; the same wicked man shall die in his iniquity; but his blood will I require at thine hand.

It’s the same principle ;  the Christian who commits killing sin from the heart becomes lost  ( or wicked ) again , and irredeemable as satan himself ( See Blog ) .  That’s why 1 John 5:16  basically says not to bother praying about that kind of sin .  And it is the Christian that is in view here , as those Lost persons  yet in mortal flesh certainly are NOT discouraged in any way from praying for salvation … something to do with the Great Commission !  Eternal life is in view here , for the life given for sin NOT unto death is obviously not one being raised from physical death . This passage deals with the Christian and eternity !  Notably , this is one place in scripture where it is critically important to realize what the Bible does NOT say .  This passage does NOT say that God EVER gives a saint  LIFE for sin unto DEATH !!!  See also Heb 6:4-8 ; 2 Pet 2: 20 – 22 .

It is helpful to compare the unwilling  sin of Rom 7:20 , with the willing  ( continuum of defiance ) sin of Heb 10: 26 . There is a type of defiance that crosses a line with God !  For His people are destroyed for lack of knowledge !  (  Hosea 4:6 )

And so , as one who for 4 months was the foolish virgin , nearly overcome by the stones of offense in the soil of my heart , Knowing both the Fear and the Terror of the Lord ,  I must observe the following :  If a shepherd adequately understands the nature and essence of killing sin , and the dynamics of the several ways it really COULD destroy salvation,  but refuses to appropriately instruct his sheep about it , he makes himself a hireling shepherd .  This shepherd gambles  that his positivism coupled with incomplete instruction on the effects of sin will prevent satan from deceiving , tempting , or goading a saint into commission of killing sin .  Spiritual suicide . Saints at times divest themselves of their own salvation !  Jesus does no miscarriage ;  He does NOT fumble from HIS side  ( John 6: 39 ) .  But Saints can abort themselves !  ( Heb 10:26-30 ; 2Pet 2: 20 – 22 ) The Born – Again process is NOT complete until we are standing before Christ in resurrection bodies ; new creations , body , soul and spirit !  Most correctly , we are being  saved !  A process !

The informed hireling shepherd who thus loses a sheep to killing sin whom he really had the opportunity to instruct will then later go to the judgment ( Bema ) seat of the Lord Jesus Christ with the stain of sheep’s blood on that shepherd’s hands .  This is why I publicize my blog right in the middle of large congregations.  Having left God just enough latitude to restore me … engaging the mouth ( Prov 18:21 )  WITHOUT engaging the heart … I am obligated to warn and educate about killing sin , the quiet holocaust in the church .  I will NOT be having sheep’s blood on MY hands !

If a shepherd knows that he needs to better understand this issue before preaching it , I invite him to read this blog thoroughly and other sources from an Arminian perspective . Once aware ,  Willing Refusal to engage in this educational effort will have a shepherd applying for hireling status .

What is it Like to Lose the Holy Spirit ?

A visual aid may assist in understanding :

Losing the Spirit was horrifyingly desolate and alienating , even from nature itself . Far beyond backsliding !  The demon cast out returns to a house clean swept partly because the very creation itself has NO use for the damned .  There is NO comfort in the beauty of nature for that one !  At least the lost are redeemable ; not so the saint who loses status through killing sin and becomes like a demon .  When the Spirit departed , it felt like my insides were collapsing .  For months , it felt like a large ” claw of vacuum ” was shoved up under my sternum .  This was not a physical symptom ; now that I am restored , I feel fine .

As I have had several shepherds duck out of lunch obligations rather than learn from one who has Been There ,  I will disclose the following that I had not put in my testimony at first :

When in the midst of my crisis , devoid of the Spirit whom had evacuated after expressing His rage , I called out to God repeatedly exclaiming that ” Your pastors have been remiss ! ”  Also , I asked God repeatedly ” How is it that we come nearly to the end of the Church age … almost 2,000 years of church history … and large swaths of the church STILL do not have this information ? ”  He heard , although He was not in me .  The desolation and alienation were piercing and far worse than anything  I experienced when formerly lost .  Much more is in my testimony on this blog .

Shepherds , we are losing between 10 to 20 thousand saints each day as the Lord showed me in a series of three dreams He gave me , also posted in the blog  .  I have been standing by that statement with NO conviction to the contrary from Him !  Rejecting Christ through carnality , offense or death of one’s faith are deadly . So too are defiant unforgiveness carried beyond this life and the direct blasphemy of the Spirit .

So , let us ALL be diligent to protect the Family of God . Become familiar with sin typology . Please peruse the blog abundantly .  God wants us to be  educated so that we can be safe , because He WANTS US !   God must be God ; He is not being mean ; He is being God who cannot lie .  And killing sin makes Him to be lower than a sinner !  See blog !

I love God more than ever before ; And I love you shepherds , too .  Part of my job now is to help keep sheep’s blood OFF of your hands .  I am available , as schedule allows , for whatever the Spirit designates .

There is NO place for a spirit of fear or of condemnation in the life of an abiding Saint of God  .

Maranatha !