I didn’t just read some books on either side of an issue and form an opinion . I almost went to hell. Satan is recruiting shepherds for assisted suicide jobs all over the church , and a shepherd’s hands can become covered with sheep’s blood . And the assisting shepherd really need not do anything …
Satan loves killing sin unto eternal death ; spiritual abortion , spiritual suicide , and severance of proper spiritual headship. He is a decapitator . Now, he just wants a managing editor position in the doctrine of your church . Binding Holy Spirit instead of binding satan will make that much more likely , as Jesus said that the Spirit would lead us into all truth . And the time has come when men will not endure sound doctrine , but seek teachers to tickle their ears …
This post is written mostly to the informed hireling variety of shepherd . Not to the diligent , informed shepherd . And to the diligent , but uninformed shepherd , I say , ” sleepers awake !!! ” This is your wake – up call . Learn more here . Recently , the Lord reminded me of a scripture in John chapter 10 :
10 The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.
11 I am the good shepherd: the good shepherd giveth his life for the sheep.
12 But he that is an hireling, and not the shepherd, whose own the sheep are not, seeth the wolf coming, and leaveth the sheep, and fleeth: and the wolf catcheth them, and scattereth the sheep.
13 The hireling fleeth, because he is an hireling, and careth not for the sheep.
Ah , yes : leaving … abandonment … can be done while physically present . Emotional abandonment, as well as dereliction in proper instruction concerning critical safety information could qualify ! One could call THAT ” instructional abandonment .”
My own experience with nearly going to hell taught me that inadequate understanding of hamartiology … the study of sin … leads to ignorance of sin typology . It is erroneous for Christians to flippantly remark that ” with God , sin is sin ! ” In our legitimate desire not to be too sin – conscious , many of us have become sin – naive ! And such ignorance makes error in soteriology , the study of salvation , more likely ! In fact , Christians are committing killing sin ; sin unto death as in 1 John 5 : 16 .
16 If any man see his brother sin a sin which is not unto death, he shall ask, and he shall give him life for them that sin not unto death. There is a sin unto death: I do not say that he shall pray for it.
And so , it is well to review Ezekiel 3:18
18 When I say unto the wicked, Thou shalt surely die; and thou givest him not warning, nor speakest to warn the wicked from his wicked way, to save his life; the same wicked man shall die in his iniquity; but his blood will I require at thine hand.
It’s the same principle ; the Christian who commits killing sin from the heart becomes lost ( or wicked ) again , and irredeemable as satan himself ( See Blog ) . That’s why 1 John 5:16 basically says not to bother praying about that kind of sin . And it is the Christian that is in view here , as those Lost persons yet in mortal flesh certainly are NOT discouraged in any way from praying for salvation … something to do with the Great Commission ! Eternal life is in view here , for the life given for sin NOT unto death is obviously not one being raised from physical death . This passage deals with the Christian and eternity ! Notably , this is one place in scripture where it is critically important to realize what the Bible does NOT say . This passage does NOT say that God EVER gives a saint LIFE for sin unto DEATH !!! See also Heb 6:4-8 ; 2 Pet 2: 20 – 22 .
It is helpful to compare the unwilling sin of Rom 7:20 , with the willing ( continuum of defiance ) sin of Heb 10: 26 . There is a type of defiance that crosses a line with God ! For His people are destroyed for lack of knowledge ! ( Hosea 4:6 )
And so , as one who for 4 months was the foolish virgin , nearly overcome by the stones of offense in the soil of my heart , Knowing both the Fear and the Terror of the Lord , I must observe the following : If a shepherd adequately understands the nature and essence of killing sin , and the dynamics of the several ways it really COULD destroy salvation, but refuses to appropriately instruct his sheep about it , he makes himself a hireling shepherd . This shepherd gambles that his positivism coupled with incomplete instruction on the effects of sin will prevent satan from deceiving , tempting , or goading a saint into commission of killing sin . Spiritual suicide . Saints at times divest themselves of their own salvation ! Jesus does no miscarriage ; He does NOT fumble from HIS side ( John 6: 39 ) . But Saints can abort themselves ! ( Heb 10:26-30 ; 2Pet 2: 20 – 22 ) The Born – Again process is NOT complete until we are standing before Christ in resurrection bodies ; new creations , body , soul and spirit ! Most correctly , we are being saved ! A process !
The informed hireling shepherd who thus loses a sheep to killing sin whom he really had the opportunity to instruct will then later go to the judgment ( Bema ) seat of the Lord Jesus Christ with the stain of sheep’s blood on that shepherd’s hands . This is why I publicize my blog right in the middle of large congregations. Having left God just enough latitude to restore me … engaging the mouth ( Prov 18:21 ) WITHOUT engaging the heart … I am obligated to warn and educate about killing sin , the quiet holocaust in the church . I will NOT be having sheep’s blood on MY hands !
If a shepherd knows that he needs to better understand this issue before preaching it , I invite him to read this blog thoroughly and other sources from an Arminian perspective . Once aware , Willing Refusal to engage in this educational effort will have a shepherd applying for hireling status .
What is it Like to Lose the Holy Spirit ?
A visual aid may assist in understanding :
Losing the Spirit was horrifyingly desolate and alienating , even from nature itself . Far beyond backsliding ! The demon cast out returns to a house clean swept partly because the very creation itself has NO use for the damned . There is NO comfort in the beauty of nature for that one ! At least the lost are redeemable ; not so the saint who loses status through killing sin and becomes like a demon . When the Spirit departed , it felt like my insides were collapsing . For months , it felt like a large ” claw of vacuum ” was shoved up under my sternum . This was not a physical symptom ; now that I am restored , I feel fine .
As I have had several shepherds duck out of lunch obligations rather than learn from one who has Been There , I will disclose the following that I had not put in my testimony at first :
When in the midst of my crisis , devoid of the Spirit whom had evacuated after expressing His rage , I called out to God repeatedly exclaiming that ” Your pastors have been remiss ! ” Also , I asked God repeatedly ” How is it that we come nearly to the end of the Church age … almost 2,000 years of church history … and large swaths of the church STILL do not have this information ? ” He heard , although He was not in me . The desolation and alienation were piercing and far worse than anything I experienced when formerly lost . Much more is in my testimony on this blog .
Shepherds , we are losing between 10 to 20 thousand saints each day as the Lord showed me in a series of three dreams He gave me , also posted in the blog . I have been standing by that statement with NO conviction to the contrary from Him ! Rejecting Christ through carnality , offense or death of one’s faith are deadly . So too are defiant unforgiveness carried beyond this life and the direct blasphemy of the Spirit .
So , let us ALL be diligent to protect the Family of God . Become familiar with sin typology . Please peruse the blog abundantly . God wants us to be educated so that we can be safe , because He WANTS US ! God must be God ; He is not being mean ; He is being God who cannot lie . And killing sin makes Him to be lower than a sinner ! See blog !
I love God more than ever before ; And I love you shepherds , too . Part of my job now is to help keep sheep’s blood OFF of your hands . I am available , as schedule allows , for whatever the Spirit designates .
There is NO place for a spirit of fear or of condemnation in the life of an abiding Saint of God .